Another year is here, and I am knee deep in stuff that I have to study for my final exams. This is LITERAL my friends: I am KNEE DEEP with materials I haven’t even touched. Scattered all across my room are papers with different states of scribles or text on them. Some have even gotten a bit dusty too. Man, and with this, I know I can still get a minimal GPA of 3. That says a lot about my study habits eh? Sad thing is, this time next year, I would probably forget half of what I study now. So…get the grade, not the knowledge. That is a terrible philosophy by the way. One that a lot of people around me seem to follow though. It’s not like I don’t know HOW to change, or WHY to do it…I have a ton of books and information on the HOW and WHY…. It’s more that I CAN’T change it. But then, it’s not that either. It’s because I’m PROCASTINATING!!!! Damn it, I procastinate daily. I have a million different excuses on why I do it, from my environment, to my neighborhood, to my friends, etcetera etcetera, but that doesn’t change the fact that it is all MY RESPONSIBILITY!!!! Change has to come from ME!! It is ME that has to decide to make a schedule, and adhere to the darn thing. Discipline is the keyword!!!!
Though you know, this semester I’ve done not too bad. Most of the stuff lying around in total disarray in my room is because I’ve read them. And just dropped them whenever I’m done with it. I’m a bit pleased with the progress from my first year, but there is a LOT that can be improved. I need to really think hard for myself and find out what I really want with school. From there I can decide to take CONTROL of my life and really LIVE it to the fullest that I want to. And if that includes things that will make me uncomfortable and out of my comfort zone, then SO BE IT DAMN IT!!!
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